Day 1- 21st September 2017

“Mom! I am waking up, give me five minutes please” I said and went back to sleeping, suddenly my mind remembered the last night’s incident. I jumped from a construction building then I thought fucking dream, but it was so real, trust me I felt the pain of getting smashed, I felt the cracking of my bone, my chest was opened up, and the blood was coming out of it, even that was so fast as it took place in the very small piece of a mini-second. I went back to sleep but I realized that my whole T-shirt is red in blood, my bed sheet was red, my hands and other body part was dirty because of the soil and mud.

I am dreaming? I am still fucking Dreaming? I am dead?  What the fuck is going on. Okay! Shreyansh, if it is a dream then you need to wake up, I slapped myself but didn’t work. “I need to Wake Up, I need to fucking wake up” I started mumbling this and slapping myself. Suddenly I heard my mom’s voice, “Shreyansh! I don’t want to be late because of you… are you coming out of that damn room or not?”  I didn’t say a word, I was numb, and most likely I was going paranoid.

I ran towards the bathroom and removed the T-shirt, slapped myself a few more time, but nothing happened except my fucking cheek was red, like really red. I took shower in a hope of waking up from this fucking nightmare, but it didn’t work. I came out, changed my clothes, and removed the bed sheet and threw it in the bathroom. I opened my room’s door and went down to the living room. My mom said, “Shreyansh Beta, you need to sleep early in an order to wake up early…”  I nodded. She looked towards me and said, “What’s wrong?

Mother is the special creation of God, or you can say they are one of those God’s personal angels because they can understand you by looking towards you. I said, “Nuh Mom! I am alright, and I need to go now….” She said “breakfast?”  In my mind, I was thinking that if I am dead then I don’t see any need to do breakfast, and I said “No Mom! I have some urgent work with Nikhil”.

I came out of my house with my college bag, and mobile. The first thing which I did is I checked the sent messages, Fuck! I sent 2 Messages yesterday to Nikhil, but how’s that possible? If these messages were real then my yesterday night’s walk was real, and that means I jumped out of a five-floor building which also means that I am fucking dead then how the fuck I woke up in my bed today and had a healthy conversation with my mom and now I am walking like nothing happened???

Nikhil & Mine Late Night conversation-

I texted him, “We were friends? Nuh! We were Bros, right? Why you cheated me brother, why you fucked my girlfriend?

He texted, “Hey! Fucker… You said you are going to die??? Lol don’t die, bitch…. everything is cool… you should move on.”

“We aren’t friends anymore… why you did it?  I texted him.

 I do remember I was crying like a kid, what will you do? If your 10-year-old best friend turns out to be your worst nightmare and fucks your love of life, your girlfriend? You’ll kill him or kill yourself, or maybe you’ll move on from both of them, right? I was very furious and I walked outside my house while my mom was on a night shift. She is a doctor, my father died when I was 3 or something, and she grew me up along with my brother who is working as a computer engineer somewhere in Bangalore.

I am alone, I had only two people in my life; one was my best friend Nikhil who just fucked my girlfriend, and second was my cute pretty girlfriend Ruhi, cute enough to fuck my best friend and pretty enough to cheat me.

I walked towards the same building, I noticed the same fucking board of “No Entry” I was afraid, not going to lie here, I was very fucking afraid. I went towards the point where I should be lying down dead and the blood was there, Holy Fuck, the blood was there, I walked towards the apartment a bit and saw the same stairs joint with kitchen.

I ran away…

What the fuck is happening? If that wasn’t a nightmare then how the fuck it was possible? How the fuck I alive? Who’s blood it is or in my bedroom because I am sure that I am not bleeding. I ran like a monster is behind me or maybe he was…