Nine

“Mom! I am waking up, give me five minutes please” I said and went back to sleeping, suddenly my mind remembered the last night’s incident. I jumped from a construction building then I thought fucking dream, but it was so real, trust me I felt the pain of getting smashed, I felt the cracking of my bone, my chest was opened up, and the blood was coming out of it, even that was so fast as it took place in the very small piece of a mini-second. I went back to sleep but I realized that my whole T-shirt is red in blood, my bed sheet was red, my hands and other body part was dirty because of the soil and mud. I am dreaming? I am still fucking Dreaming? I am dead?  What the fuck is going on. Okay! Shreyansh, if it is a dream then you need to wake up, I slapped myself but didn’t work. “I need to Wake Up, I need to fucking wake up” I started mumbling this and slapping myself. Suddenly I heard my mom’s voice, “Shreyansh! I don’t want to be late because of you… are you coming out of t...

Every hour, one teenage commit suicide in India, if we see the bigger picture then you can say that 8 Lakh people every year commit suicide, worldwide. Now, 17% of those are from India which is around 1,35,000 freaking numbers. Why I am telling you this? Actually, it was my research before committing suicide like a Ph.D. student does his/her own research. We all are going to die, no doubt, if you can’t control the steering wheels then there is no point in living, we all are out of control, aren’t we?   We all are living like a Sheep with some certain rules which are created by Sheppard (God). I don’t have problems with God, even I think God is necessary because without him/her we are nothing, he/she is the reason behind all the curiosity, Science is developing because of him/her, we wanted to see him/her, and we wanted to be as powerful as he/she is. We are human, fucking greedy people but this greed is important because without it we are nothing. Fuck this crap! I do rem...